THE COUNTDOWN FOR ALLIE!

269 more days!!! Till Allie has to reveal herself as a new person haha....

I have my goals and if this means i work out three times a day..then so be it! Now my dream dress is there...and yes you all have seen it..i am IN LOVE with this dress...and even though it will take me years on end to achieve it...I AM GONNA DO IT SO DONT PUT ME DOWN!

Newbie...dont worry..i wont show up in yellow and i wont show up in this :) hahaha...this is my countdown....off i go to trader joes...my salsa is calling me

ive fought, ive loved, and ive lost...but im walkin tall

Today was a huge day for me...i threw away pictures, i gave goodwill all of his clothes...and i have never been so happy to have a spare drawer to put MORE clothes in THAT ARE MY OWN! yes....i am on the move and i have never felt so much better about myself....i am not going to let him get to me because i am better than him and i am better than her combined...better person....everything...i have nothing to be sad about because i have the best family in the world and the best friends in the world....its true..you never know what you have till you need them the most...and i realized how much my family is there for me how much they are my number one when i was down and out in an ugly situation...i cannot thank them all enough and i will forever be repaying them with love and all i can give....which right now isnt much more than love and pushing forward....



thank you for everything everyone has done..from talking poop with me about how men just suck...and talking about how my life will be so much better...everyone is right and i have now seen how everyone is right...thank you all so much...



im walking tall...no one will be able to cut me short again...because i can see better and know that i wont ever settle for anything less than what i deserve...and i will never let this happen again...



LETS GO SHARKS!!!!!!

At least it will be warm there!

This past Sunday...Katie, Josh and I embarked on many new adventures...I will take you through these adventures as we saw them and heard them play out on Rhonda...Our trusty GPS System....

It all started with trying to figure out the street as to which Macy's is on in Union Square...Did you know that there are a total of 5 Macys in SF? No wonder our economy is in a bind!

"Turn right onto south bound 101 in 0.3 miles" Let me tell you what is wrong with this statement....first of all you turn left....second of all..Katie opened an umbrella in the house...so great...the GPS was already trying to screw us over by NOT sending us on the freeway....

"Recalculating"

Getting closer to the golden gate bridge Katie had a brilliant idea...one that josh and i have never done before....gone to the look out of the bridge...u know the one where you see EVERYONE taking the pictures at and where the sleep train mattress commercial takes place...yes folks...i was born and raised in the bay area and have NEVER been to this such place...so we quickly take a turn off the free way...this is where Rhonda starts to get a little fiesty...

"turn left onto 101...continue then turn left...recalculating....recalculating...recalculating....FOR CHRIST SAKES RHONDA WE STOPPED!"

it was going to be a beautiful day in the city .. so what did i wear?? oh yes i did....shorts and flip flops....as we see people wearing PCoats and snow wear...I am climbing this mountain (yes ill call it a mountain) in flips and shorts....not as bad as the lady (who was asian) walking up the hill when we were driving away...in shorts and high heel boots....people these days!!! so we get back in the car and proceed over the bridge and to the city...

recalculating...recalculating...this was something that we heard quite often...

we arrived at macys or a parking structure where we valeted the car...i love going places with katie and josh haha...Jetta does me right...so we went to stores we had a good time....but the best moment occured in Bloomingdales...let me lay out this scene for you...we are approaching the flat boxes of purses that are reduced(becuase that is all i can afford and really cant even afford that)...and there is a guy who works at blooms standing next to it....there is a purse in the corner to which is HUGE and gold sequenced....it was just drawn to me...so i picked up and said YES I WILL BUY IT (i really didnt but here is the best part...) the man that was standing next to the box said immediately.... "and then you can buy a sequenced shirt that matches and go out to the club and he put his hands in the air and proceeded to go...and you can go "WOO WOO"....yes ladies and gentlemen...he did this...i laughed...put the purse down and walked away...HIGHLIGHT OF MY TRIP RIGHT THERE....

recalculating...recalculating...

after union square...we decided to go to the bear facotry on leavenworth...which is no longer there...but on our way there we saw a movie being filmed...almost hit the camera car because the cop didnt know it was coming and told us to go and when we didnt he yelled at us but THE CAMERA CAR IS THERE SIR! stupid cop! and we saw the curvey lombard street...again lived here my whole life and ive never been on this street...so what do we do?? WE GO ON THE CURVEY STREET!!!! there was a nice HELLO from an asian lady...and there were peiople struggling up the hill and going through the curves....jetta made it through nicely...

recalculating...recalculating...

we then proceed to head back home..but decide to go to the movies before we finally head home...BRIDE WARS! chick flick...i loved it...hilarious..and cute...sigh...i love chick flicks...go see it...so over all it was an eventful day..we did things that i thought were never going to be done in my life and i am completly content....as we were talking crap about people in the car i said...we are going to hell...and katie ended our day with the perfect tag line saying....at least its warm there!

my pictures arent uploading!

I am going to be happy!

Here goes nothing!!

My name is allie...and I am turning my life around...no more negative thoughts...no more "what ifs"...no more "i wants"...all of those "I wants"...I am going to get...I am not saying it will be easy...its going to be the hardest thing for me to do in my life probably...but I am doing it...My life...I am going to live it...and I am going to live it like the way i want to because its for me now....I have spent so many nights so many days trying to make other people happy...trying to make the other person laugh...Right now...I need to make myself happy because I cant make others happy if i am not truly there...No more waking up wishing on stars and wishing on things that may not come true...no more wondering "what if"...if it is meant to be..it will all come around and be...and i promise..i will keep this more updated and more interesting...this was just a beginning...

just the first

this is a post just to be a post....i am fixing up my page and then i will give you a long extensive yes to my blog...PATIENCE NEWBIE PATIENCE!